Wednesday, October 21, 2009

"I Want This Forever...."

"....I Swear I Can Spend Whatever On It...."

Really??

You want it forever? Or just right now? Do you want it cause you think you cant have it, and once you get it you stop spending whatever on it? I always wonder about guys that go so hard for a chick (or vice versa) only to mess up once they get her. It's like, what the hell was your point? Yes I know some people might lead on that they feeling someone more than they really are to get what they want, but it seems nowadays people are going to EXTREMES to satisfy their temporary wants or needs. Its just never been that serious to me to lie to kick it. Im just saying.

What's so hard about bein honest with yours? "Look, I just wanna do this or this and that's it. No extra stuff. Are you cool with that?" Taking the honest road might get you some surprising results. A bish might actually be down with that! Instead of wasting your time, energy, and money on showing someone a side of you that's not true, or that's not going to last, why dont ya just be you? I promise SOMEBODY will like it!

It just seems so much easier to me to just be honest from the beginning so no one can come at you feeling played or lied to. I like to be able to call somebody up in the future if need be, so why burn ya bridges? If you really workin to get so many notches on ya belt, dont they disappear if the person wouldnt mess with you again? Like if I was into that sorta thing, I would find the number of who I can call again more important than the number of people Ive been with period.

Know that you are so much that dude or chick you dont have to sugar coat nothing and wrap it in a bow. Know that you can be real and say what you want and and actually GET what you want. Let's leave the games on the mantle with the highschool diploma and act accordingly, please and thank you. "Cause Im not gone play the radio witcha!" :-)

Friday, October 9, 2009

Regrets are Man Made!

And im tired of making them! lol

Im so tired of wanting to just be myself and do my own thing, but always hesitating because i didnt wanna have to explain myself or deal with some drama! I dont wanna have to answer to anyone and i dont want anyone to think i owe them a thing. Im grown and for the most part i take care of myself, so why do i need to take anybody's feelings or concerns into consideration when making a decision?

We shouldnt let people define whats good or bad in our lives. Whats good for somebody might not be good for the next. And all these labels nowadays making it hard for people to really be themselves. Who cares what the next man gonna think about what you do with your mind, your body, your money, or whatever. Do you! Stop worrying about what people gonna say and go for it. Especially if you able to make your own decisions and they arent affecting anyone but yourself. Why not?

I spent a long time hesitating to do things, not because i thought they were bad, but because someone else did. Now how much fun was that for me? And when things did not go my way, i always got the "i told ya so". Well i dont care. I just wanna be free to live! I dont want to answer to nobody but the big man upstairs. Anyone else is just a spectator.

So dont regret your past and dont hinder your future! Just be you, whoever that is. Dont regret what made you happy for the moment. Just live like you know its right for you. So whatever youve been debating, just do it. Take a risk, and live. No one can tell me whats right for me or what choices i should make . Seriously, "who gon' check me boo?" ;-)

Friday, October 2, 2009

You Just Know ;-)

I love that kinda love

Im just saying, you ever had that kinda love with somebody that it doesnt matter where they are, what they're doing, or who they're with, you just know ya'll love exists. Yes lawd, that kind of love where you dont even have to say anything, you know they know what you mean. That kind of love where if you dont see them it doesnt matter, cause when you do...;-) That's special!

I used to be the girl that just had to talk to my boyfriend everyday :-/ I can admit this because like most girls, that's what we did in high school. You talked all night on the phone til you fell asleep, and they better be at your locker in the morning prepared to walk you to every damn class, sit with you at lunch, then wait with you til your bus came, and then talk to you all night long....again. I really dont know how i did that lol

Once i got older, it wasnt so extreme, but i did still want to talk to my boo atleast once or twice a day "so i knew everything was okay." I had to realize this just was a comfort thing; maybe even an insecure thing to be honest. I used to feel like he cant talk to nobody else if he's talking to me lol But I had to realize that dont mean not a damn thing! Ive sat next guys while they "check in" sooooooo yeah lol You dont want ya boo to have to call just to prove he's not doing anything wrong. That's lame.

Being a woman means being secure with yourself and your situation. You dont feel the need to check on him and make sure he's doing what he said or make sure he still loves you (cause it might have worn off over the course of the night :-/) If somebody loves you, they love you, period. Who cares what they do all day long. A woman also cherishes her alone time and doesnt need to be smothered with a guy. Once you know what you have is real, you dont need to worry about it. Although the situation may not be perfect, you know where you stand and in the end, they will still be right there. So relax bish! Real love aint going anywhere =)